good saturday morning to y'all

i'm not normally up this early on a saturday morning. janelle is going on her world changers mission trip this morning and we have to have her at the church by 8:30. we're having breakfast at waffle house before she leaves.

we used to go to the waffle house a lot when she was younger and i took her to school. that was kind of our friday morning routine, especially payday fridays. i miss those mornings now that she's older and driving herself to school. it was nice just sitting there quietly enjoying our time together. janelle and i are alike in that we don't really like to talk much first thing in the mornings. we're ok with the silence between us. i think that's one of the reasons we get aggravated with mom and dad in the mornings sometimes. they get up all chatty and we don't want to be bothered until the sleepy haze evaporates from our eyes.

it was a whirlwind day yesterday picking janelle up from business week. thankfully her roommate's parents were helping her carry her luggage downstairs when i got to the dorm. i was not looking forward to climbing the stairs with my knee hurting like it has been. (for some reason it's been hurting more this week!)

we had the awards/graduation ceremony. janelle was recognized for being nominated for the ron mcnair scholarship competition. i was proud that she was in the running for it. she had a really good, productive week. she talked about it up until we were about 20 miles from home and then she decided to take a quick nap...lol. i was surprised b/c she usually is asleep about 10 minutes on the road. that's her thing...sleeping in the car. i'd do it too if i didn't have to drive....lol. i know i used to sleep in the back seat when we went on the family trips. it made the time go by quickly.

well, i'm going to go now. i need to finish getting ready.

kisses....

i know it's a cliche, but tgif

i am ready for this week to be over! it has been stressful and emotional. i am so aggravated with myself for being such a crybaby and for the stupid temper tantrums i have had. i apologized to the consultant we were working with on wednesday. i didn't realize that he had been up for over 24 hours. he was running on empty and we just kept on with him. he seemed to appreciate the apology. i told him i wouldn't have given him such a hard time about things and we could have discussed later some of the issues.

i go pick up janelle later today from pc. i need to get some sleep so i won't be so tired. i know why i'm wide awake. i had a cup of coffee about 3:30 or so yesterday afternoon. it was the strong stuff too. michael came in the kitchen while i was in there and made the fresh pot. he's such a cutie! he always makes a point of saying hey to me when i see him. i like to give him a big ol' bear hug. it makes his controller uncomfortable. i know she's just conjuring up all kind of hr violations when i hug him. but it's ok b/c he's not my boss nor will he be my boss. she'd really have a fit if she saw how dan and i greet each other with a kiss on the cheek...lol.

well, i'm going to go now. i finished downloading another meditation podcast from itunes. i listened to them last night and had the most restful sleep i've had in a while. hmmmm...must be something to this learning how to breathe right and relax.

kisses.......

is it the weekend yet?

first the good news: janelle was nominated to compete for a $3000 scholarship at business week. she has to write an essay and then if she is selected, she is interviewed. i hope she does well. this will be a big boost for her. she has really worked hard this summer on her fbla stuff and the business week stuff. she has stepped up and taken the lead with her various roles she's been assigned. i'm so VERY proud of her!!

i miss her though even when she's home and on the go with her friends. i'll be glad when all this travelling is behind her!

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being sensitive sucks sometimes. i hate crybabies and i have been one today! i must be pms'ing b/c i am crying at the drop of a hat. today at work sucked b/c we are in the testing phase of this new software. the consultant who has been the main one working with us is a jerk. he's very condescending and talks down to us...me mainly. he treats me like i'm a total idiot and i'm just sick of it.

it seemed like every bit of input i gave or question i asked was challenged. at one point i threw my hands up in the air and tearfully said "i give up! i'll do whatever y'all say and that will be that!" i honestly don't care anymore b/c the app is so buggy and incomplete. it will not fly with the user community. my stomach is starting to hurt now just thinking about it.

i gathered myself together and started the testing at my desk. there were limited scenarios i could test b/c a couple of the pieces are not complete yet. well, i couldn't even test those basic functions b/c they didn't think about the things i tried to do. hello!! they were in the blueprint and they were in the test scenarios. supposedly the functions were tested, but i'm finding they weren't. the logic behind some of the functions showed me that they have little or limited experience in the practical application of the functions. enough about work!!
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i'm going to go now. i'm tired and my stomach and my knee are hurting. i am debating whether to take a percocet or not. i think i will b/c i want to have a good night's sleep. oh i don't have my appt with dr c. tomorrow. he wants to see me after i have the other gallbladder scan so he can discuss everything with me.

kisses.......

ok once more i'm not able to put a title in....so that just makes it an even more aggravating monday....

i had a fairly productive day today even tho it was aggravating. i've gotten all the security stuff set up for the new planning system and it's ready to be emailed out to the masses. we're supposed to have an announcement email go out warning of our emails about security. we'll see if that actually happens. enough about work...i'm tired of it already!

i have an appt with dr. c on thursday to talk about my gallbladder, hiatal hernia, and esophagus erosion. oh what fun! i have an appt monday at 7:15 am to be injected with some radioactive stuff and then get an x-ray. it's supposed to tell dr. c what is going on with my gallbladder. the gallbladder sonogram showed that i have thickened walls in my gallbladder, but they won't know if that's normal for me until after this other test.

i'm just kind of sitting in this holding pattern about surgeries. i definitely know i need to have the knee surgery to trim the torn cartilage in the right knee and to shave down part of my right kneecap. lol...i love to see people cringe when i say the kneecap part. i know...i'm weird.

one thing is certain...i need to get all the surgeries in this year so i only have one deductible to pay. i don't need to pay anymore than i can help. i'll probably throw in getting a new cpap mask and supplies after whatever surgery comes first and is applied to the deductible. i know folks are probably thinking i'm causing insurance to go up at my company. well i've been there for almost 8 years and have yet to meet my deductible with me and my daughter's stuff combined.

i can't help that some of this stuff has happened to me this year. trust me, i'd rather not have to have anything done. i'm not scared of surgeries or doctors, but i'm just aggravated all of it came down at once. it's like i can't plan anything b/c of pending surgeries. i can probably give up trying to go to a race later this year. that's probably for the best since i need to lose a fair amount of weight first. if i have that stomach wrap thingie, i'll definitely lose the weight. it's been described as a mini-stomach stapling that helps with the acid reflux. and considering that i have significant damage to my esophagus due to the acid reflux, i'm a good candidate.

well, i'm going to wrap up now. sorry for being such a sour grape. mondays bum me out sometimes. i need to work on that...it's not monday's fault...lol.

kisses........

ok for some reason i can't put a title in today so i'll just start.

the weekend is almost over and it will be back to the grindstone tomorrow. i'm not really looking forward to this week b/c we will be doing unit testing on the new system. i'm going to try my best to not get irritated with the consultants but i'll be working with archer so who knows...

i took janelle to sc business week. she'll be there through friday. she sent me a text saying she was selected as ceo of her company. i'm really happy for her b/c she wanted the position. i hope it will be rewarding for her. i wish i could remember the name of the lady who was the keynote speaker. she was very inspiring. i noticed janelle was hanging on her every word. hopefully she will have a good, productive week and have fun in the process.

i'm going to go now. i'm having another one of my hot flashes...stupid perimenopause...this is ridiculous!

kisses...

united we stand - independence day

happy 4th of july, y'all! today is our nation's birthday....231 years old. i've had a nice day relaxing in the middle of the work week. i spent a good part of the day knitting while watching the revolution on the history channel. it was pretty interesting even though we had history shoved down our throats in school. it's always good to get different perspectives on our nation's history.

i'm glad i live in the united states. we have freedoms that other countries don't have. we have rights that other countries don't have. i couldn't imagine living in a country where i would be killed if i declare i'm a christian and believe in jesus. we're definitely lucky, folks, and should be appreciative.

i also want to say thanks to all the men and women who have served and are currently serving in our armed forces. we wouldn't be this great nation without all of you out there protecting us and what we stand for. i'm proud that i live in the united states of america...the greatest country GOD has ever created and blessed. :)

kisses....

frenchy

i'm listening to the soundtrack from one of my fav french movies, amelie. it really makes me want to go to france. i've always wanted to visit there and possibly live in one of those small french country villages where there are like 500 people in the whole place.

i trace my love of france and all things french to my childhood. one of my all time fav movies was aristocats. the setting was in france and the mama cat spoke french from time to time. and i just loved pepe le pew, the french skunk always chasing the unsuspecting female cat.

i majored in french at winthrop, but never completed my degree. i was inducted in the national french honor society, pi delta phi, my sophmore year. and just the other day, i remembered how to say " i would like a dulce de leche latte grande please" ( je voudrais un latte de dulce de leche de grande svp...i looked it up on babelfish!) i was pleased to find i had my verb tense right. i struggled with verb tenses from time to time. recently i even went as far as looking up french podcasts on itunes. some day i will download a whole bunch of them and get back in the french mode again.

well, i'm going to go now. au revoir mes amies!

bisous*......

*kisses