random thoughts on a tuesday

i've been by myself here at the house since saturday. i haven't had much contact with folks other than the random calls to my family and having to go to work today and yesterday. butterfly has called me a couple of times, but i'm trying not to talk to her too much. i am trying to maintain my distance from her.

i've been thinking about living by myself after janelle goes off to college. part of me wants to move into my own place so i can just take care of me and not worry about anything else. but the other part of me knows that it would hurt mom's and dad's feelings if i moved out. even tho i don't like to admit it, we're good for each other. there's a balance that's been established since janelle and i moved in here with them. as much as i like these little breaks from the family, i miss them. it makes me wonder how i'd do on my own. would i become a recluse and only go out when i had to...work...grocery store...occassional visit to mom's and dad's house?

i do spend a lot of time by myself. i like to go to the bookstores or to the library and just hang out knitting or reading books or magazines. i enjoy going to the knit shop and talking with the ladies, hanging out at the yarn store and learning from them. i think i might drop by this weekend since janelle isn't going to be home until sunday.

i want to make the reading-in-bed shrug for janelle from a pattern i downloaded from interweave knit bonus pattern found on this page http://www.interweaveknits.com/freepatterns/lingerie.asp. i'm going to ask mrs. barbara to help me come up with an alternate yarn. i want to make it in a creamy color that will go with lots of her strapless tops and dresses. she has some cute things to wear, but needs to cover up her shoulders when she's working in the office or at church.

i knit a swatch with some other yarn i had just to see how the pattern looks and if i could follow it. i know i can adapt it to different types of yarn other than what it is called for. i've really gotten into the lacy patterns lately. i am going to take a look again at the victorian lace book at b-a-m.

well, i'm going to go now. i'm sleepy and need to get some good rest.

kisses....